Britney Spears wrote a suicide note saying Perhaps it would be better if I was dead, according to The Sun newspaper.
Apparently a friend of the Piece Of Me singer found the letter just before her meltdown this month when she held her sons hostage.
A source told the paper: The letter was very sad. Britney talked about her loneliness, how unfair life is and not being able to trust people.
According to reports she also shocked staff in a clothes shop by leaving the changing rooms naked.
She then spent 45 minutes with her English lover Adnan in the area making strange noises. We think they're suggesting the couple were making love!
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