Rihanna May Never Talk To Chris Brown Again
The S&M star has opened up about her feelings after Breezy's 2009 assault...
She continued: "It was a very vulnerable time in my life, and I refused to let that be the image. I wanted them to see me as, 'I'm fine, I'm tough.' I put that up until it felt real."
The S&M hitmaker also discussed her decision to lift the restraining order she had against Chris, stating: "That's my decision. It doesn't mean we're gonna make up or even talk again. It just means I didn't want to object to the judge."
Rihanna claimed that despite an attempt at reconciling with the 21-year old, she hasn't heard from Brown for ages and doesn't plan to speak to him again in the near future."
RiRi claimed: "We don't have to talk ever again in my life. I just didn't want to make it more difficult for him professionally."
"What he did was a personal thing — it had nothing to do with his career. Saying he has to be 100 feet away from me, he can't perform at awards shows — that definitely made it difficult for him ... But you can never please people."
The What's My Name singer added: "One minute, I'm being too hard, and the next minute, I'm a fool because I'm not being hard enough."
In the same interview, Rihanna also recalled memories from her childhood where her father, Ronald Fenty, used to beat her.
The star confessed: "I was always terrified on Friday because he could come home drunk. That was pay day, and half of it went on alcohol."
"He slapped me so hard. I ran home with his handprint on me. I couldn't believe it. My mother saw my face, how traumatized I was."
Rihanna also spoke about her S&M tendencies, where she admitted that she "loves being tied up and spanked."
The raunchy singer then addressed rumours regarding her suspected romance with actor Colin Farrell, confessing that she does have a crush on him.
She stated: "He probably thinks I'm starting all these crazy rumors. We don't even have each other's numbers…I wish. He's smoking."