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Sophie Kasaei Reveals She Had Suicidal Thoughts As She Opens Up About Relationship Insecurities

The Geordie Shore lass discussed suffering depression a few years ago, how her ex Joel Cory was there for her when she felt she had lost everything, and baby plans with her new boyfriend, Jay.

Geordie Shore star Sophie Kasaei has opened up about suffering insecurities in her relationships, as well as a dark time in her past that left her feeling suicidal.

The lass spoke to psychological therapist Emma Kenny for 'Closer' magazine about her split with Joel Cory, her new relationship with Jay and a time when she thought she "didn't want to be here anymore."

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Sophie revealeda string of events, includingher parent's messy divorce, the failing of her business and her departure from Geordie Shore in 2013 led her to a pretty difficult place mentally.

"I felt like I'd lost everything and I was left thinking 'what else can go wrong?'," she said.

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Sophie Kasaei

Sophie added: "I had depression, and I started getting suicidal thoughts. I just didn't want to be here anymore," she said.

Life started to get better for Sophie when she began taking care of herself, and re-joined Geordie Shore: "The producers of'Geordie Shore 'said they wanted me to take part in a reunion show. The reaction from the public was great and then they asked me back full time. I felt like I was given a second chance at life, I was so grateful. I started taking care of myself more, too, so I felt better in that way as well."

But it seems that one person who was there for her through it all (the good AND the bad) washer ex Joel Cory, who she split amicably with last year: "Joel stuck by me the whole time. People started to say he was with me for my fame, but I lost my fame - and my money - and he was still there. He really stuck by me, but last year we hit a wall."

Sophie Kasaei wants to 'christen' her new flat with Joel Corry

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Sophie Kasaei wants to 'christen' her new flat with Joel Corry

"I wanted to settle down, but he wasn't ready to settle down. It was an amicable break-up. We've not spoken since, but I see what he's doing via social media and I really want him to be happy," she said.

The lass opened up about insecurities in her relationships, revealing that in the beginning with Joel she worried that he was "gorgeous and ripped" while she didn't feel she was "the best looking."

"We stayed together for seven years and I got to the point where I realised he really did love me," she said.

And now Sophie is happy in a relationship with her new bae, Jay, but she admits a few doubts still creep in.

Sophie Kasaei and her boyfriend

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Sophie Kasaei and her boyfriend

"There are moments when those doubts creep in and I'll think, "Is Jay with me for me?" But he didn't know who I was when I first messaged him on Instagram, so I knowIneed to work on my self-esteem," she told 'Closer'.

But it looks very much like Jay is a keeper, as Sophie explained: "He's a normal guy an he's from a close family. I'm 29 now, so if we're still together in a year, I'd love to have a child."

'If you're suffering from suicidal thoughtsyou can contact Samaritans on 116 123 or email them on jo@samaritans.org.'

'Don't forget to catch our lass on Geordie Shore Tuesdays at ''10pm'' on MTV!'

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