TOWIE's Mario Falcone Reveals Suicide Bid
Reality show star says he fell apart in wake of Lucy Mecklenburgh split...
The 25-year-old told Now magazine that he had taken an overdose of strong painkillers because he "couldn't stop the negative thoughts" after their high-profile split.
He said: "Lucy was my world. She wasn't just my girlfriend, she was my best friend.
"I thought: 'I've definitely lost her over something I haven't done'. Plus, I'd fallen out with two close mates - Little Chris and his brother Ben - because of it and I was getting abuse on Twitter.
"I was just thinking about all the things going wrong in my life and the reasons why I was so depressed. I couldn't stop the negative thoughts. It was so silly."
And he says Lucy left him after he revealed his depression to her and an argument ensued.
"I called her when I woke up but I didn't tell her. I was too ashamed," he told the magazine.
"We had a row at our home a week later and I blurted it out. She was shocked, upset and confused. Until then she didn't understand how extreme my depression was.
"It exploded into an argument and I said nasty things, threw my iPad at the wall and stormed out. I think it scared her to see the dark place I was in. So she ran for the hills."
But he says he doesn't resent Lucy because of it.
"I understand. I don't blame her. She's 21 with a business and her own life. She doesn't need to be babysitting her boyfriend.
"A week later I got back from a meeting and Lucy had sent me a text saying: 'I've left. I feel claustrophobic in our relationship.
"All the things you said, admitting you tried to commit suicide - you act like it's nothing but you should be getting help'.
"But she told me: 'I'll always be here for you'."
And he revealed that he is now seeing a counsellor again and is feeling much better.
"I've got the aid I needed. I've been fully assessed and am fine. People have told me I'm a different person; I really have it all to live for.
“I don't wake up feeling anxious now. I wake up everyday smiling."
Lucy was in a topless photoshoot last week.