TOWIE's Mario Falcone Reveals Suicide Bid
Reality show star says he fell apart in wake of Lucy Mecklenburgh split...
The Only Way Is Essexcast member Mario Falcone has revealed that he tried to take his own life in the wake of his split from Lucy Mecklenburgh.
The 25-year-old told Now magazine that he had taken an overdose of strong painkillers because he "couldn't stop the negative thoughts" after their high-profile split.
He said: "Lucy was my world. She wasn't just my girlfriend, she was my best friend.
"I thought: 'I've definitely lost her over something I haven't done'. Plus, I'd fallen out with two close mates - Little Chris and his brother Ben - because of it and I was getting abuse on Twitter.
"I was just thinking about all the things going wrong in my life and the reasons why I was so depressed. I couldn't stop the negative thoughts. It was so silly."
And he says Lucy left him after he revealed his depression to her and an argument ensued.
"I called her when I woke up but I didn't tell her. I was too ashamed," he told the magazine.
"We had a row at our home a week later and I blurted it out. She was shocked, upset and confused. Until then she didn't understand how extreme my depression was.
"It exploded into an argument and I said nasty things, threw my iPad at the wall and stormed out. I think it scared her to see the dark place I was in. So she ran for the hills."
But he says he doesn't resent Lucy because of it.
"I understand. I don't blame her. She's 21 with a business and her own life. She doesn't need to be babysitting her boyfriend.
"A week later I got back from a meeting and Lucy had sent me a text saying: 'I've left. I feel claustrophobic in our relationship.
"All the things you said, admitting you tried to commit suicide - you act like it's nothing but you should be getting help'.
"But she told me: 'I'll always be here for you'."
And he revealed that he is now seeing a counsellor again and is feeling much better.
"I've got the aid I needed. I've been fully assessed and am fine. People have told me I'm a different person; I really have it all to live for.
“I don't wake up feeling anxious now. I wake up everyday smiling."
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