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Tulisa: "My Personal Life Has Just Been S**t"

X Factor judge tells LOOK mag she doesn't regret Wireless outburst…

Tulisa appears on the cover of this week's LOOK Magazine and has addressed her outburst at the Wireless festival where she was pictured sticking her middle finger up at sex tape ex Justin Edwards.

"I wouldn’t take it back for a second," The X Factor judge said. "Before I went on stage, I could hear the crowd booing. I had to put on an attitude that said: “F*** every person in that crowd. I’m going to perform and you’re going to listen, like it or not”."

The Young singer was also very open about the stresses of the past year and being such a public figure, telling the publication: "People say: 'Oh my God, you’re a role model now.' Why am I a role model? Because I’ve been myself.

"People are underestimating the kids of today – they’re not stupid. I’m not inspiration for upper-class kids whose parents don’t want them listening to an Eminem album. I’m an inspiration for broken Britain."

Speaking of fame, Tulisa continued: "Yeah it’s amazing, yeah I’m grateful for those things – they make life easier – but if you could put me in a little house in the countryside with a picket fence, a husband, dogs and a family where I can feel love and happiness, I would trade that in a second."

The N-Dubz stunner also went on to address her private life, confessing to the mag: "Everything goes great in my career but my personal life has just been s***. Fame and money – I don’t give a c**p about all that stuff.

"I’m not unhappy in the sense that I’m suffering from depression but I’m pretty numb at the minute. I just see myself in work mode, I’m like a robot: go in, work, go home. Autopilot."

Tulisa then briefly discussed her former relationship with N-Dubz co-star Fazer, revealing: "We’re not in contact any more."

When asked about what she looks for in a man, the Live It Up star said: "Men are scared of me and won’t approach me. Even if I like someone and I’m fluttering my eyelashes, they still run a mile.

"So I wouldn’t have dates if I didn’t approach people. That’s why I go for really tough lads because only they can handle it."

The 24-year old added that she finds it hard to trust people, stating: "At the minute I’ve only got three friends who I actually spend time with. One’s Gareth [Varey, her PA and best friend], one’s a friend I’ve known years and the other’s an ex who’s become a best friend."

To read the feature in full, see the latest issue of LOOK magazine out now.

Pictures: James Browne. Pictures courtesy of LOOK Magazine.

Click here for a behind the scenes video with Tulisa.