Tulisa 'Wouldn't Leave Her House' After Sex Tape Leak
The N-Dubz star has recalled how she felt when the clip hit the web...
Tulisahas revealed she went into hiding after her sex tape leaked online last month, stating in a candid interview that she spent seven days sleeping on her bathroom floor.
The N-Dubzsinger, who was left "devastated" after footage of her performing a sex act on ex-boyfriend Justin Edwards hit the web, also told The Guardian that in her first few months on The X Factor, she heard whispers that the tape may be released.
Speaking of how she felt when the clip emerged online, Tulisa told the newspaper: "Devastated. I slept on the bathroom floor for seven days...I just wouldn't go out of the house. Couldn't sleep. Didn't really want to eat anything.
"But I snapped out of it. I knew what I was doing. I knew in my head that I was depressed; I knew why I was depressed. It was all logical. I didn't want to smile. I didn't want to be happy...It was like a level of mourning, do you know what I mean?"
She continued: "I needed to have my tears and tantrums, my bad moods, and get myself into a state to come back out of it. And I literally just woke up one morning as happy as Larry, put on my best dress, makeup, full hair: 'OK, I'm going out.'"
Contostavlos then went onto explain that she felt better after confessing to the tape in a YouTube video, despite her management and press team advising her to stay silent.
The 23-year old said: "Everyone was trying to sweep it under the carpet and I felt that that was making it more seedy than it was. I was like: 'Hang on a minute, I haven't done anything wrong here!'"
Tulisa added that she is still angry at those who have criticised her, stating: "I guarantee if everyone else out there had a camera practically shoved up their arse on a day-to-day basis, in their face, that a lot worse stuff would come out...
"There are probably girls out there who have done a million times worse with their boyfriend, and are probably going to go out tonight and get laid with a random bloke they've just met, whereas I'll meet a bloke and make him wait six dates before he even gets a shag. But because of some footage, people make assumptions about the sort of character I am."
Addressing rumours that she leaked the sex tape herself to generate publicity, Tulisa claimed that she would never want to jeopardise her role on The X Factor or upset her family.
She concluded: "Also if I was going to release a tape of myself - I haven't watched it, because I can't physically watch it, but from what I've heard, I'd make sure I was a lot sexier and probably not 19 years old, because that's a little bit pervy.
"People seem to be forgetting that I'm 19 in it, which is quite wrong...Everything I've spent my whole career building up and representing - I wouldn't even do a bikini shoot with FHM, so why would I release a tape? Why am I spending thousands of pounds in legal costs to stop it coming out?"
Earlier this week, Tulisa admitted in a separate interview that she has 'no regrets' regarding the raunchy footage, telling Top of the Pop's magazine: "I could sit all day long saying I wish I’d never done this or met that person but at the end of the day, with the position I’m in, I can’t exactly complain.
“Everything’s taken me to the place that I’m in and made me the person I am. It just makes you stronger, doesn’t it?"