Zoella Gets Real About The Ups And Downs Of The Last Year
"January was a really hard month. I started the year feeling very suffocated."
Zoe Sugg might be queen of the internet, but going from bedroom blogger to one of the biggest things on the whole of YouTube doesn't come without its challenges.
Opening up in a new blog post to celebrate the New Year, Zoella's been getting real about the ups and downs she's faced in the past 12 months. While it naturally includes a lot of highs, this also involved some pretty frank talking about the lows, which range from dealing with her anxiety to how she contemplated ditching her internet life for good after a media storm somewhat marred the release of her debut book, Girl Online.
The start to 2015 wasn't the best for Zoe and in the post she says: "To be completely honest January was a really hard month for me. I started the year feeling very suffocated by certain press, some other creators and just general negativity following the launch and success of my first novel.
"It’s very devastating to work hard on something, and for it to be twisted beyond your control and to feel as though the only thing you can do is crawl into a hole rather than try and stand up for yourself and to watch everyone else turn on you. It’s almost like it happened in slow motion and I spent a good portion of the first quarter of the year trying to find happiness online again.
Revealing that there was a moment when she even thought about quitting, she adds: "I contemplated stopping everything and the real irony in all of it, was that the main character in my book battled with nasty press and negativity, so she decided to throw her laptop in her wardrobe and to shut everything out, and that’s exactly what I wanted to do.
"I felt as though the real purpose of my book had been completely buried. I wanted to shed light on real things for young teens to read through fiction. I wanted to spread awareness of anxiety, of gay teens struggling with how their parents dealt with their sexuality and hard friendships, amongst other things."
Luckily the support of those around her helped Zoe get through and she ended up having a pretty killer year releasing her second book, doing some amazing photoshoots and even having a Madame Tussauds waxwork made in her likeness.
Having been very open and honest about her struggle with anxiety over the years, Zoe also revealed that she spent a lot of 2015 focusing on getting things under control.
Talking about a low point during a trip to Playlist Orlando, she writes: "My anxiety seemed to have gone up a scale during the start of the year, and I was having to learn in ways I’d never learnt before in how to tackle it head on! The flight was horrendous, and I returned feeling like I’d completely failed and told myself I would never get on a flight ever again because it just didn’t feel worth it."
Luckily weekly sessions with a therapist and some hard work helped her turn a corner and meant she felt able to get right back on a plane for her book tour and a holiday to Mykonos in the summer.
Offering some advice for those facing a similar situation, she writes: "I urge any of you who are struggling to make it your mission this year to seek some form of help. It’s hard, but totally worth it!"
If you need some New Year's resolution inspo then look no further as Zoe's approach to the year ahead sounds pretty badass to us.
Concluding the post, Zoe says: "In 2016 I’ll be flushing out the people that don’t bring out the best in me or who have a negative effect on my life or wellbeing and focusing on those who make me laugh until my sides hurt. After all, life is too short for anything less.
"I’ll also attempt to drink more water, do squats until my bottom resembles Kim Kardashian and remove my makeup every single night, but we all know those things will roll around to 2017 too and I will probably fail miserably!"
Us too Zoe, us too.
- By Linds Foley.
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